I am currently in the process of riding myself of my nutjob of a girlfriend. After 4 years together, it almost feels like a million. I am no Saint by any means, I am not the most expressive lovy-dovey type guy i must reckon. However, I am loyal, direct, and I take care of myself and the people I care for. I call it like it is and I expect the same from people. Maybe this is a reason why I do not have too many friends. I don't deal with bullshits and pretense.

Anyway, despite the many years of trying to reason with a lazy narcissistic hyper emotional and childish adult female, I have come to the realization that I am wasting my time with her. She will never be appreciative of the things that I am doing and have done for her. I have paid for her schooling, I pay the rent and the cable, fix the cars, cook, and even clean for miss princess. She makes excuses all the time though.

  • " You got so much more time than I do."
  • " I am tired, the kitchen is too small"
  • " We need a bigger house!"

Lazy b..tch!

I am the alpha in my relationships, nobody bosses me around, especially not a female. I am just quite patient and forgiving, which explains the years I have spent with her. I could have called it quit long time ago, I did not out of a sense of loyalty. But, I am done now!

Obviously, I am quite exhausted dealing with females. I seriously need a breather. I am still quite young; in my early 30s; and, I have a few goals I would like to accomplish before it gets too late. Ridding myself of this heavy bag of a woman ought to free me of time, energy, and creativity. I have vowed to take a couple of years of " bitches sabbatical" and focus solely on me and my mission in life. I am gainfully employed, but I know I ought to do much more with my potential and abilities.

Just as I am trying to move forward though, here comes a conundrum: There is a nice sweet young lady that is crazy about me. We met last year at work, but she had since moved to another company not too far from mine. She " seems" to be everything that a redpilled man would want in a woman. She is not too hot, thus not as conceited and full of herself. She dresses nice and conservatively. She is sweet, caring, and feminine to the bone. I would be lying if I say that I am not interested, quite the opposite though. Countless times, she has invited me to hangout, go to bars, or simply meet up. I have always politely refused by making up some stupid excuses. Internally, I yearn to enjoy the company of a decent woman, but I have a commitment to singlehood and nothing can break that. Also, there is something, deep in my guts that tells me to be wary of " nice girls." I don't know how to explain this, but I just can't seem to trust this young Cinderella. Is it my insecurities manifesting themselves given the fact that I am so used to dealing with dysfunctional " thots"; or, is she merely yet again an AWALT that is very proficient at hiding her intentions and motives? I can't pinpoint it. She is that Good!

Lately, our relation has reached a rather staling point. We do not talk as much as we used to. I can see it in her eyes when we meet that she yearns for me to make the move; I won't! She has never chastised me; but she doesn't know that I am about to become single again. I like the lady, but I have to get myself together first before worrying about some females. It would really hurt me to see another dude swoop her in, I am not even going to lie! But a Man live and die with his decisions. I am committed to focusing on ME, women can wait, even the "few" good apples!