Hi everybody,

Longtime Listener. First time caller.

Anyway, I just wanted to type my thoughts and see what the community has to say about it.

I've had several LTRs, but I've been single for a while. I like being single. Women just take too much time and energy out of me.

I've recently started a business in the past year that has been very successful. The more time and energy I put into it, the better it gets and the more successful I become. I try to spend every waking hour on it.

Recently got myself into a hole where I watch too much porn and masturbate a bit more than normal. It's a good release for me when I can't solve a problem that I have been working on. However, I've noticed that if I do it too much it makes me feel depressed and socially awkward around women.

This past week I went on a business trip and have been nofap for a solid week. I always wanted to try it. I usually masturbate once a day. I try to not look at porn. If I do, it's just vanilla pictures from Reddit or regular old porn. I don't have that problem where my porn habits have escalated to some weird shit. I've done this pretty much my whole teen/adult life.

I tried to keep my nofap going for as long as I could, but I just felt like all I could think about was picking up chicks. Sure, nofap gave me a ton of confidence with girls that I didn't think I had before. That part was great. But, my brain was just completely filled with girls and sex. I didn't want to do anything other than to put energy into picking up girls. I felt like I had zero creativity, too. I couldn't think of any new ideas and I wasn't really motivated to do any work. I messaged several girls, and it's pretty crazy how far a little confidence and TRP goes. But, I really dread all the time I will waste trying to make these girls my plates. It really makes me wonder if it's really worth it when I can just masturbate for 5 minutes and stop thinking about such pointlessness for the whole day and continue on achieving my goals and career. I feel like this superhuman confidence with ladies will be useful only when my career is on autopilot and I have some kind of structure in my life. Right now, it's strictly startup life for me. Hope that doesn't sound douchey.

It seems to me like living a pickup artist life takes so much time and energy that I don't know how you guys have time to further your career. Is this why monk mode is so important? Should I just go on an extended monk mode until I have time for this?

Bill Burr told this really funny story on his podcast about how when he first started standup, for the first 5 years, he didn't talk to any girls and all he would do was come home, masturbate and then fall asleep after his shows. In his words, girls just don't understand. I really took that to heart because of how true it was. Girls never understood me when I was trying to start this business. All they did was complain about how I was spending enough time with them or wasn't putting enough energy into the relationship. Of course, I am referring to my LTRs here, and no plates have ever said this to me. But, I just can't fathom how much time and energy it takes to have several plates. I already spin enough plates trying to be successful. Source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZYxGUf3JeZI This specific rant starts at around 1:30.

So, let me sum it up. I am having trouble with time management. NoFap and TRP causes me to have superhuman confidence with the ladies. But, I think that causes me to spend way more time on pussy than if I were to just masturbate for 5 minutes. Not to mention all the other things it makes me do. Like go to the gym, making sure I am groomed properly(lol, almost said good hygiene), etc. However, masturbating too much causes me to become depressed for no reason. And don't worry, I am always TRP around girls without nofap. But, this experiment has shown me that it is most effective when you pair it with nofap. It really gives you true IDGAF mentality/confidence.

EDIT: Added Bill Burr video.