After reading a recent thread on TRP I thought I'd make a post about a recent experience with a plate.

So she recently decided she wanted off my train and as such said something to the effect of "Fuck this, fuck you I'm done with whatever this is.". I'm 90% sure she developed feelings for me and she knew I'd never reciprocate. I said at the start that this was only a FWB/Casual sex type deal. I fucked her once and got 2 BJs (Swallowed) so I'm not upset about her walking, but I found it interesting that for no reason whatsoever she pinned the blame on me.

The full message: "Yea you know what, fuck this fuck you. I'm not down for whatever this is. I'm just going to get hurt in the end cause this isn't what I'm looking for. I'm out."

I replied with "Alright, that's your call." and left it at that. She wasn't worth trying to keep spinning, especially knowing she most likely wanted a relationship. But I find it interesting that she was attacking/blaming me for doing exactly what I said I'd do.

I told her from the start, I'm an asshole, I will piss you off and I only want sex. She agreed and that was that. But now somehow it's my fault for doing exactly that. I'm not 100% sure if I've fully swallowed TRP or not, it might be more stuck in my throat ATM but I'm trying my best to only care about myself, work on myself mentally, physically and emotionally and everything else I've read. I love this philosophy, my female interactions make so much more sense in the context of TRP.

But I still find this interesting, how after doing what I said I'd do and what she agreed to, I'm the one at fault. I guess that's the hamstering at work.