posted this on /fit/ a while back, no one replied, so was wondering if you guys have anything to say

I am pretty sociable with guys and have good relations with many of them, and I think I am pretty much a normie in that regard, which is good.
However, I pretty much avoid talking to girls and have started despising their overall nature. I am not incel ugly, but not attractive enough to have girls initiate conversations with me. These 2 factors have increased my nervousness with girls so I can barely talk to them for fun(I'm pretty smart and have no problem asserting that I am right and they are wrong on problems we are supposed to solve in class, but that is not talking for fun) even on the rare occasion I intentionally pursue that. I am in an endless cycle of not caring about girls and then regretting not caring.
Another thing I'll say is the Red Pill belief that you shouldn't have friends who are girls is widely inaccurate, at least on the high school level. I've seen much more ugly manlets have girls due to their lack of (despise/nervousness). I can't wait till college, where either red pill starts taking more shape or at least everyone will be pursuing new friends and I can somehow get some girls then.
Although I have spent some time writing this post, this doesn't really occupy my mind too much as I have other things that I enjoy doing, so don't tell me to stop worrying about girls, because I'm not.
I'm 16
Any advice appreciated.