...and your dad were the best friends you ever had on this earth. If your relationship with them sucks or sucked and they weren't unconditionally loving towards you- well, aren't you a lucky bastard. Welcome to the party: I was lucky for having my mom- dad is a different story.

The reality of life is lonely- whether you're a hypergamous vole, a centipede infected with some brain eating parasite or a sentient, self aware human being. You are alone. Embrace it. Stop hoping that other humans will accept or like you- they will never be your salvation. Nor will they be your equal, if you play your cards right. But more often than not, they will happily and surely drag you down in to the peaceful submission of mediocrity with them.

There are rare exceptions, which will be contingent on what you have to offer those said "exceptions" in any currency that is their gold standard. I have "blood brothers" from my previous employment who have kicked down Satan's door with me and assisted in cunt-punching him. They would still probably screw my LTR if they could.

So anyway, you're alone. But you are all you need- be happy, enjoy the solitary moments and learn to shore up power socially with other human beings to your own ends. You want depth added to life? Try fatherhood if the opportunity becomes available- it will fill the void for almost anyone. Even some socio-inclined folks.

As for your relationships with other people...there is nothing deeper than TRP's truth. It is dirty and shallow like a worm-infested puddle. Accept it- and make it work for you.

But there is something more to life itself than "game" and "alpha." And you have to decide for yourself what it is. It is intangible. When you do decide- and you propel yourself, unafraid, towards that "something-" you'll find around the time when you stopped caring (or "giving a fuck"), other people started.

Fair seas, following tides- may the force be with you. Etc.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=scTqpfL9WMA