Been having higher frequency and quality sex these last two months. I'm not slowing down on increasing SMV. I feel more confident about my body. I last longer and snuck a second round of sex after i got off the other day. We were both pleasantly surprised. So testosterone is getting better.

Worth noting here, is that I'm having sex to enjoy myself now. I mean, it's great seeing her get off and all, but I'm doing what feels good to me and pushing my own limits.

She's even starting to display want. She has indirectly initiated, but that in itself is huge, so I'm pleased. Not to mention how anal play has gone from 'icky' to 'our new thing'(her words). She even admitted to rubbing one out the other night cause i was out so much that week. (She's never spoken so openly like that)

Here's where it gets flaky: I'll push something new or do something edgy, and she rolls with it. Gives in knowing I'm getting off on it (her too, in the heat of moment) but then the next day she'll shit test me on it. It's hard enough, having the balls to experiment like this on the fly.

I figure she's testing just to be sure my newly restored masculine skin isn't paper thin. But fuck, those zingers can be sharp and fucks with the mind... i need to push AA/AM, cause I'm not quick enough yet.

I'm not looking for hi5s or validation. I just want to make sure I'm on the right track with these latest curveballs she's throwing me.