I’ve swallowed the pill recently (3 months ago) and a few times I’ve ended in a situation.

Each time I had been acting too little beta and too much alpha for a week or two, and my LTR suddenly throws me multiple shitty comfort tests, that I’m different and I want something else in life, and she’s afraid that we don’t match (not physical) anymore.

I fail the tests overall, and she won’t stop whining and sometimes it’s lasted for many hours until 3AM.

But about three times I’ve caved in after trying to comfort and reassure her. The beta bitch I am starts crying in desperation and telling her exactly what she’s expecting to hear, what I’ve been doing for us and her, being all needy. A super beta move, that leaves me feeling like a child. When I do end up crying and telling her what I’ve been doing, she suddenly become compliant and kisses me passionately, and wanting to jump my bones.

Am I misunderstanding something about the situation, that it’s really just a shit test, or am I maybe too autistic to deal with comfort test? I have gone Rambo-alpha, trying to be something in between, because I regularly fail those comfort tests.”

Man I do love being alpha/in charge but fuck I feel like a Manley for days after these incidents.