5’6, 175 lbs, Bench: 265 Squat: 345 Deadlift: 405 Currently dieting on the Carb Nite Solution

Books read: WISNIFG, MMSLP, Rational Male Book 1, The Way of the Superior Man, Book of Pook, TheRedPill Sidebar, The Manipulated Man

Currently reading Rational Male Book 2

I have been married to my wife for about seven years, together for nine years. Over the course of our marriage, the sex life has been abysmal, averaging at around once a month. I began reading and listening to Red Pill content for about a year and a half. During this time, I have tried to get back into better shape; improve my financial literacy; be the best father to my children; and use the techniques in WISNIFG to deal with shit tests whenever they come up.

One shit test came up that resulted in complete failure on my part. My wife has access to my Instagram and saw that I had looked at some random woman’s profile and pictures. It was nobody I knew, just someone I thought looked good. I told her that I thought it was hilarious that she had no sexual desire for me and has admitted to letting herself go to make herself as unfuckable as possible but is mad that I saw some chick’s profile. During this conversation, I realized I had put up with this shit for 8 years and issued a shitty ultimatum (powerlessness). I said if I’m doomed to be in a sexless marriage for any longer then I’ll go ahead and start the divorce process.

Fast forward a few days later, I found out my wife made an appointment with a doctor to figure out why her sex drive is so low. During her appointment, the female doctor just asked her questions about what I was/was not doing. My wife told me she was asked questions about if I help around the house; if she has any traumas; or how sex is when we do have sex. I basically got to listen to a short story about two hamsters (hers and her doctor’s) in overdrive.

Now I think that I have been doing things wrong the whole time. The covert contract is laid bare and now all I find myself doing is STFUing. I’ve stopped sitting around and gossiping about useless things like what I see on social media. Turns out, that’s all we talk about so I have gone almost silent. My wife keeps asking me what’s wrong. I keep telling her that I have some things im dealing with but there are no issues with her.

I ask myself where I’m at in money, muscles, game, and frame. I think im failing in all four. Muscles I seems like the easiest to fix though since I haven’t let myself go too much. I just have no desire to engage in any useless conversation anymore.

What are your thoughts? How badly do I have this fucked up?