Few weeks back I met this girl in my apartment but we were both leaving to two separate countries at the end of two months. I've had four relationships in the past and all casual but never got emotionally involved

I have read the side bar in the past and now during this time I was reading models by mark manson.

I decided to just be vulnerable and polarise this girl just like the book. I was emotionally open for the first time in my life.

We started a friends with benefits kind of thing and now in two weeks she'll be leaving . There's alot of pain I'm feeling every now in then I can feel it inside my stomach I try not to think about it but it comes anyway

This is the first time a girl has checked all my personality boxes and she's hot too.

I know y'all be like oneitis and that's true but like is that it? I leave this girl then what? Will I find girls like this who check my personality boxes and also are hot and make me laugh and all that cliche bullshit? I can't stop thinking about her all day and I need to stop and focus on my mission.

PS I'm from India so this girl is pretty conservative and not a hoe shes fucked around with boys before but never sex also she's ltr material according to that side bar rating for ltring a girl.