Hi, just wanted to say thank you for reading my post. I will try keeping it as short and concise as possible.

About me: 20 year old man. College student studying Sciences. No relationship/girl interested in me before, always been rejected. Fat (225 lbs at 5'10.5"). Lazy and procrastinate like crazy. Whenever I want to fix my life, I feel like it is too late and i keep regretting wasting all those months and years back!! It makes me feel like shit.

Problems I am experiencing: I keep making plans to lose weight, eat healthy, exercise by doing calisthenics and jogging but it NEVER HAPPENS. i keep saying okay i will just do it the next day. I am not sure whether to read the sidebar, watch Patrice O Neals' black phillips videos, read Models. i keep saying tomorrow I will. but that tomorrow never happens. I am getting fatter and lack of self-awareness due to not being involved in TRP. I have the worst habits ever, i just go to college come back home, study, sleep. Nothing interesting. Boring as hell. I would be considered a low SMV guy, eventually becoming a BB. I also have anxiety in public (social anxiety). I heard of doing these exposure therapy exercises like dancing in public, talking to random strangers, doing these things to not give a crap what people think. Im not sure. I wear relaxed fit jeans, graphic tshirts, hoodies.

What I want to achieve: I have always been the complaining, whining, bitter guy. No more. I am willing to do whatever it takes to become the best I can be. I won't blame anyone for my problems but myself. If you tell me to approach girls which I haven't done since high school due to being afraid and thinking I am not good enough, I will do it. Please just guide me as to how I can do these things. Would college campus be alright for a fat guy to approach girls in the day? I don't know what to say. I would start stuttering and feeling nervous as hell. I don't care if I get rejected again, I am sure the euphoric feeling of even talking to a girl would be enough to feel more alive and not dull. I want to stop being a pushover and "nice guy". I want to be the cool, well-dressed, charming, fit guy that can attract at least ONE woman.

Thank you all very much. Sorry if this is too long.