I am looking for advice as a 23 y/o male student. I read TRP and PPD for several months. Since then, I got into lifting weights, got a more attractive body and show some muscle from only 2.5 months of work in the gym. Proud of it so far. However, lifting does not solve my issues. You see, reading stuff online and after some thought, it seems that I severely lack in some fundamental building blocks of a normal human. First, I find that one of the most limiting factors is attractiveness of a human being. Never had success with girls. I had interest shown but I was very retarded with regards to social queues and these girls were not attractive to me. So, I left high school being a virgin. This never bothered me but having done some research, I found that male face is important and from my post on amiugly some time ago, one person said that I should get rid of my mild acne(agree, but this shit is not easy), and that my side profile shows receding chin and I lose points just from that. I was not called ugly but a bit below average looking. Never was too conscious about appearance but honestly this hit me very hard because I can't control that.

Secondly, after doctor's inspection, he stated that I have depression and wants to put me on meds. I can pinpoint what causes my unhappiness. One: lack of success with girls and people in general, two: my appearance, three: my studies. I study Computer Science. I am not bad at it, I am in like top 10% of students in top 10 school in the world but I find my interest in it dwindling and my depression and other mentioned issues hit my performance hard in my degree. He suggested to seek counselling but talking about these issues won't solve them. I know why depression is there and need to take action to fix these issues. Drugging me and yapping about positivity won't fix shit. Confidence only improves when achievements are unlocked. Gym is prime example of this.

On paper I am okay: several internships, study subject in demand etc. but I truly lack happiness and purpose in my life. After consideration, I know that girls would not fill this hole. I'd say becoming more attractive would help to my confidence, having more social action as well. I have no success with women because of how I look and act. I lived in 3 different countries so far and women are mostly repulsed by me. Can see it from body language and their expression on their faces.

I will cope with my studies somehow, but it seems that my life is held back by my looks, lack of social skills etc. I am not the kind of guy who gives a shit about looks to be honest but it is other people who care and inhibits my success in life with others.

Lifting lifts around 20% of my depression. A large part of it would be relieved by being more attractive and getting more attention. 20-30% would still remain, mostly because not feeling in my place or having a clear mission and being good at something. How do I smash through attractiveness barrier? I understand that some women just won't touch you without great face but I am depressed when I study at uni with 70%-30% men ratio and am still single. Something is very offputting about me.

Any advice guys?