I hate to say it but I always had sex with women I really liked and got into relationships with.

Because of that, and because I had the bar too high , even though I needed the TRP to start working for myself, there were times were girls would give me IOIs and I would just do nothing, because I didn't like them enough.

All the while I was catching oneitis for the hotties that gave me a fraction of attention.

Back to the point, I met this girl a while ago, and although I didn't really like her, she is a 6 at best, but she seemed receptive enough for me to go for it.

I didn't like her, I didn't really like spending time with her, I just wanted to smash. We made out a couple of times and she was stopping me everytime I tried to escalate to sex. She did it once, then twice, and I was not going to give her a third chance but I did. We meet again and she stops me for a third time.

At this point it was obvious so I asked, are you a virgin? She said yes, but I think am ready for it.

I said: "you know, you are only here for a few months, and I don't really want a relationship"

her: "Me neither, I know that"

So I was then torn. It has been so long and I wanted to have sex, but I had no experience with virgins before, and I would hate to have her get attached to me.

After a while my primal instincts gave in and we did it. It was slow and as she got the hang of it I came, it has been too long. i didn't really enjoy it, and I now regret it, because I am worried that she will get attached to me even though she said she wouldn't. And I am not really used to smash and pass women. Of course if there is a second time it would be a great chance for both of us to enjoy it and for me to practice.

I was worried for the entire duration, damn, I don't really want to hang out with this girl other than sex, and even though she said she is not looking for a relationship, she would feel somewhat attached to the guy that took her virginity right?

Why am I so worried?

P.S I never had sex in a bed before as strange as this may sound. I never had my own place until recently and I was usually having sex in my car. After we finished I went to the bathroom and filled the condom with water to check for leaks. Is this a reliable way to tell? Although I pulled out all these years without sex got me paranoid.