Hello, I'm making this post to get the help of people who have been through the same things as i or that might help me in any way. As i was young i had a few one sided sexual encounters with male, i was not raped, to say it all the worst that happened was that i was convinced into masturbating another man, he then masturbated me. Most of this attention was respectfull but i was young and didn't understand what it meant; i know homosexuality was widespread in Antiquity but it still felt forcefull or at least manipulation.

I'm average size, nice looking guy, and i often got the attention of older teenagers. It has helped me in female conquest but i also got 3-4 encounters with men who tried to get me to have sex or other sexual acts with them. Thing is, since i can see how it has influenced my mindset, i tend to get very protective of my ltr, and tend to see men as potential threats, one of the coping mecanisme i found was getting stronger and more apte to fight. I have noticed that it can hinder my potential to socialise, making aggressive for little reason and i find it's a pity.

I was wondering if anyone has had the same experience, and how them coped with it?