due to beta conditioning, i have struggled hard through my teen years and early adulthood, particularly when it came to women and sex. i've been friend-zoned many times, manipulated by girlfriends, & gave up much of my valuable time and energy to relationships that really weren't worth it (though in my head, i wanted to believe they would be eventually, for some fucked up reason). i'm almost 24, and my sex life has gotten bleak ( 2 years -_- ) . however, this time has been good for my personal development. i'm a lot smarter than i was when i was actually getting laid, back then i approached women as a like-able beta and rarely i would be lucky to have any alpha impulses actually carried out (obsessive thinking and hesitation made me usually pretty bad at sex ). in my time of incel-libacy, i believe i've improved my outlook on life a lot and take much better care of myself than i used to, and i'm noticing results in my social interactions with attractive women (though they are few and far between and i am still admittedly suffering minor anxiety episodes). I'm still struggling with myself, however. I have problems with unhealthy addictions like tons of cigarettes, some drinking, sugar and fast food, porn/masturbation, weed, & social media. Despite this, I actually manage to maintain an OK social life and i'm making OK money (though not great), but i am suffering a lot of depression and very much not successful with getting women in bed. it prevents me from working out the amount i want to, my sex drive is all fucked up from masturbating so much, i feel low energy and mentally blocked when i try to work on my usual creative endeavors like music and game design. i used to work endless hours on my games, but lately i dont even want to work on anything because i haven't had a sexual experience in such a long time. when i meet girls on dates or at parties or wherever, i find myself unable to have interesting things to say, and i find myself disengaging from our interactions and failing to even meet her eye to eye at times. it's strange, i used to be more beta-minded but better at gaining genuine interest from women, and now that i've hit this dryspell i've become alpha-minded from solitude and getting to better know myself, but i keep fucking things up when i meet girls.

i guess i'm just wondering if anyone has seen a strong connection between self-numbing addictions and beta-mindedness, because i think that's what has been going on with me. how much do you think that developing an alpha frame of living involves ditching each of these addictions?