I realize rejection is part of the game. I love Models and TRM and I realize that if someone doesnt want to spend time with me its all good. Outcome independence, i'm the prince yadayada.

That said, i've had multiple women use me without my knowledge to get their recent ex boyfriends to come running back to them. I have to say, i'm starting to get effected by it. If we were fucking i wouldnt care as much but im only getting them liking my stuff on instagram, comments then logistic texts. When the day comes for our planned date they either go radio silent, never give me the address or cancel. Then next thing I know they have a new picture with their boyfriend, i promptly unfollow and move on, i'm only spending probably 3-5 mins of total investment time but its adding up with each consecutive girl.

These are clearly not women i want to spend time with but i'm getting jaded. Ive got 5k followers on IG so i thought gaming on there would be good but i havent had a single date come out of it. Tinder and bumble have died down aswell after valentines day. All in all im just going AFC and i dont want to go that way.

I had dates planned last night tonight and tomorrow night and all three did the same thing. One forgot she had other plans (fair because i forgot about our date monday, im sure she just wanted to even the score, today never gave me address when i asked and tomorrow claims she has been super sick and works all next week eyeroll) I guess thats the game. Last week both my dates happened. I guess thats how it guess. Just horny, i dropped all my plates and have raised my standards and im starting to starve. Feeling myself going back into that scarcity mindset but i dont want to bend my values and morals and standards for a lower piece of ass. Need to get back to that abundance mentality. Its just hard when you go from like 15 targets and then the numbers start to dwindle.

Gotta pause, refresh and re-up. At the end if the day I know what my value is and i'm only getting better everyday. I just want it all right now.

Heading to the gym! Cant think about this shit when you squat within an inch/lb of your life