I was maskuline before my ex . Then She falled love with me . There is a bad summer is going . My mother diagnosed with mid level COPD and my grandpa diagnosed also with worser COPD . When we was having fun time with my gf we drilled the condom its also stressed me a lot . I M trying to change my university and I took bad news about that also . Simply there is a lot bad things happend in a one month. Then these situations turned it to me beta male . I was depressed a lot. I couldnt spend money beacuse of possiblity of abortion I couldnt go to vacation . Then I lost my hypergamy with beta moves so she left me . I want to fix myself I want to be masucline again . I also forgot how to the game , I m always thinking about my ex how can we can together again etc etc. I want to forget her or turning her in to plate. Give me a guide with your opinions to how to be masculine again. I m geneticly beta so I can turn easily to beta but I made myself masculine in a period but it could be broke again .My father is beta my mother cheating hım over 10 year with a lot guys . I cant tell him because he can suicide himself so I m keeping it like a secret . I want to be strong that never being a beta again