I was always considered to be a decently attractive guy and got a notch count up to 80+ in my early twenties. However in my mid twenties I was afflicted with a serious mental illness that included psychosis and it really took a toll on me. I’m now stable and on meds in my early thirties and I still get checked out pretty often but my confidence suffers because of this illness.

I do not approach in public and right now only get numbers from online dating. I haven’t set up a date yet but I’m trying. Should I disclose that I have an illness to my date or try and hide it? I’m worried that if I hide it the girl might be able to tell something is off with me. my friends say that I seem completely normal from the outside so that is somewhat re-assuring.

Basically I think I use this as a crutch to not better myself. I was in the gym for a few months but my diet wasn’t right so I didn’t get results. I have a decent blue collar job and I will eventually be making 75k in a good cost of living area. Can I still raise my SMV even if I have something genetically wrong with me? I don’t have kids and have never been married so Im happy with that decision. How would you guys handle it? Any advice is appreciated