quick tl;dr. older guy, divorced for a year. unwittingly became beta over 20 years. Found out wife was fucking some ex-bf, divorced her on the spot and refused all attempts at reconciling. have since lost 60 lbs (6'1, 175lbs) and in very good shape now, lots of success scoring (well, for me), promoted to top position in company, got a harley. All this "naturally". Found TRP about a month ago.

Anyways, I have a new GF. I'm 44, she's 36. 4 months together, 3 months exclusive (she asked). Saying I love you (her first). I'm not looking for comments on those things as I can expect what the criticisms might be, but whatever. She's hot, has a kid, and up until very recently, was a cam girl. I'm not looking to marry this girl, but I'm happy.

I'd like to call myself "low alpha" but I'm probably just "high beta". But fuck the labeling, I've made huge progress in a year. Just looking to make more.

Things were/are by no means "bad". Having sex nearly every time I see her, basically just when logistics absolutely prevent it or on the worst days of her period. Because of the kid, we barely even go anywhere. It's mostly just hanging at her place, talking, laughing, fucking. We also enjoy some "light" drug use, which greatly enhances some of these experiences.

Over the last month, I've changed a bunch of behaviors and have had much success. Just this past weekend, I planned and did my first ever "dread game". We'd both at one point changed our profile pics to ones where we're together (no comments on that, it's a process). On Friday morning, I changed it to just me and went "almost" no contact. One word replies to maybe every 4th or 5th txt. (this was actually the toughest part, she's funny and engaging, chatting is fun. it was HARD not to. I felt bad for her, even) Late Saturday afternoon, I txt'd that I needed to pick up my sweatshirt with no other explanation. Lots of dramatic txt'ing at this point, all fully ignored, until she suggested I come by that night around 10, after the kid went to bed. I didn't reply and just showed up around 10:30. She started mad, but I didn't take the bait. Did a "you're acting crazy. i don't need to be treated this way", and went to leave. I was kinda sweating at this point, as it wasn't until I had my helmet on back at my bike she came running out and apologized. Asked me to come in, spend the night.

easily at least tied for the best sex. Stayed the night, which is somewhat common. She woke me up at 4 for more. Woke me up at 7am for more. I leave immediately after, where it was clear I was "expected" to stay. She called around 11, asked me to come for lunch. When I hesitated, she said come around noon, the kid will be napping, I'll make you lunch and we'll have a quickie. Which she did, and we did.

I'm very new at all this. I've never been beta outside of relationships. I wasn't beta before marriage. I'm not sure at what point, but I became full beta. I'm recovering, and I think I did quite decent on my own, considering.

I'm not even sure why I'm posting. Looking for additional tips, I guess. I don't want to pull another dread game, at least for awhile. Otherwise it'd be obvious, I think. On a somewhat lucky note, and I guess a "subtle dread game" or whaatever, over the last 2 weeks, 2 women I used to date have been coming around with obvious intent. I did tell both I was in a relationship, both seemed to leave. I told the GF all about it. One of the two got back in touch with me .. wants to "talk". I haven't turned this down, instead just reply maybe once a day with something flirty.

I dunno, I think maybe I'm typing this up more just for my benefit, haha. Any feedback welcomed.