Ive been back and forth trying to figure out exactly what I should do at this point with my friends. Theyre all varying degrees of beta, none are RP aware but they all show interest in bettering themselves. at least they say they do. Ive been spending less and less time with them lately because I notice myself having an easier time slipping back into a more beta leaning modality of being.

My main issue is that, I dont know whether its better to keep my interactions down to minimum right now while I spend more time working on myself, or to try to take charge more while im with my friends and steer the night away from everyone wanting to leave the venue early so we can go back to whoevers place to game and binge watch tv.

Ex drug addict recovering from a brain injury. I started hanging out with these guys when I was getting sober because I needed friends that didnt just do drugs all the time. I feel like Im outgrowing them, but for the time being exercising, eating right, focusing on my health and taking on whatever work I can is my main priority. So I should make the best of it, keep my interactions with them to a minimum, when I do go out to see them I should try to steer the night in a direction thats more agreeable for me.

Im also having some apprehensions about how honest I should be with them. Part of me wants to just scream "youre all fucking manchildren and Im gonna keep being one too If I dont make a change" but thats obviously petty and almost shifts the blame onto them, like im suggesting that theyre dragging me down. Its probably just as simple as saying "I need time to work on myself right now" also if theyre really my friends they'll understand. If they arent, and dont understand, fuck em.

Even though I pretty much answered most of my own questions, Id appreciate any input I can get from you guys on this matter. Sounds like beta me is scared of sacrificing some of his old friendships for a better future