Found TRP last year after acting like a beta fag at the end of a LTR. Stepped up my SMV and started spinning 4 or 5 plates at a time for the last 6 months. I've been what you could call a PUA since high school with a few LTR's thrown in the mix.

Anyhow I got complacent. I've settled with 2 women (one where I live and a LDR back home that I visit every couple of weeks) with a piece of strange here and there for about the past 2 months.

The problem is with the MLTR who lives here. 31 yo HB 6 single mom. Met her on OKC and our first conversation was sex. She's into fetishes and is self proclaimed submissive. I was cool with it and fucked the shit out of her the first night we met. My intention was to plate her but she was showing a lot of interest early on (sending me 4 to 5 nudes a day for several weeks) and we eventually agreed to be exclusive (although she isn't aware of the other MLTR).

We see each other most weekends and it's usually grabbing a drink somewhere then getting sloppy at my place followed by all night fuck sessions. She told me I was the first to ever give her an orgasm through sex which I find hard to believe (guess I'm humble- but maybe she's never had the tren dick) and that I'm also the first man to meet her 5 yo daughter since she a her husband split. She expressed her concern that she didn't want her daughter to get close to me, then me fuck them over.

Well I've spent time with her and her daughter and she's shown me videos of the little girl saying she misses me and loves me. To add to all this, HB6 has just recently got my name tattooed on her chest. Yes I approved and paid (shit kind of turns me on lets me know they're deeply invested).

I've been dominant the entire relationship. Get sex/blowjobs when I want it and have maintained impressive frame for the most part. Dread game has been tight. She tries to shit test saying old guys from the past are contacting her and flipping out bc she won't see them. I just laugh and say "how pathetic". Texting is about 70/30 mostly her. I almost feel like I may be imparting too much of an alpha frame besides 3 incidents: I booted her out of my place one night when she started a drunk argument (was after I told her that I'd be alright without her) and started to walk home and called her ex (baby's dad) to pick her up. The next morning I found this out when she didn't answer my text and I got worried and drove to her house. She wouldn't come out and he came out and told me she was upset and didn't want to talk. I left and went radio silent for about 3 days after which I sent her a message saying that "I don't agree with what I did the other night". She told me he hid her keys and wouldn't leave. Says he's a compulsive liar and I'm sure he's beta.

I recovered my frame and everything was back to normal until she texted me one day saying she had been fired from her job and was in the hospital. UTI and some other shit so I did what I should have and went to see her. We get back to my place and she refuses sex. I tell her that sex is integral to my relationships and I won't tolerate her withholding. She asks me to take her home and I refused so she begins to walk again. I physically picked her up and made her come back which then led to some hard core sex. I feel like I lost frame in this situation.

So for the last 3 or 4 weeks since then she's shown a lot of attention, texts, needing me during the week. This past weekend I take her and her daughter to see fireworks. This was Friday night and I had plans to visit my other MLTR Saturday through Tuesday. So I break the news to HB6 Friday night that I will be leaving town and be back Monday. She told me "I will be waiting for you" and was fine until the next morning she shit tests me and says she found a long black hair (she's blond) on her after taking a shower. Then she flips and asks why I even have female toiletries in my bathroom (they've been there for plates for awhile but she's never had a problem with it until now). I act stoic and leave the room and she continues to bitch. I tell her one time to change her attitude and after 30 seconds she was still bitching so I tell her "come on let's go". She lays on the bed and doesn't attempt to leave at first then I take her hand and lead her and her daughter out the door. No words on the way to her house she gets out and slams the door.

NC until Monday night she sends a text saying "I love you so much. I'm sorry" and a meme about not going to bed angry because the person you love may not wake up. About 30 min later she says "good bye then...". I don't acknowledge it. The next day as I'm on my way back she sends a picture of my name on her chest and says she just left the shrink (she also has a history of depression/bipolar disorder - I know I can hear the flaming now). I text her something funny and she responds seriously, then I send another light hearted text, as if nothing happened.

Well I don't hear back from her until the next day (Wednesday). She sends a couple of ambiguous memes and when I ask her to explain what they mean she says "we fight and you send me off and don't talk to me for days but I still care or else I wouldn't even bother". She says she's very stressed out and her phone will but shut off in 3 days until further notice. We text a bit more and she tells me I'm not open enough and "It's not like I want to GPS track you but I don't want us to have secrets". I tell her I feel like I'm open and she begins questioning me again about the toiletries so I tell her they were from my ex and my buddy who helped me move put em in the cabinet. Then she asks if I would get her name tattooed on me and I say yes because you're mine. I tell her I plan to spend the weekend with her (I was planning on showing some beta bc I feel I let her down by leaving town- we usually spend the whole weekend together and she's cancelled plans to stay with me)

Don't hear from her at all until I text her the next day asking how she's doing. She says she's stressed and had a seizure or passed out the night before. I tell her I look forward to seeing her tomorrow (Friday) and I love her. She says it back in the plainest manner "me too. I love you" then a meme that says "I don't want to have the worlds attention, yours is enough". I reply with "you have it sunshine" then she sends xoxox like she did several weeks ago.

Friday comes and I feel it in my gut that she's going to flake so I attempt to make her invest in the weekend. I send her "do me a favor" as I was going to get her to look up tickets to a nearby theme park. Don't hear from her and end up sending a text "you alive babe". Finally she replies late that afternoon around the time I'm leaving work "what's that" and a meme that says try hard everyday not to be a crazy bitch (when we first met we had some deep talks and established that I'm a psycho and she's a crazy bitch, so we are aware of each others tendencies). I say "that's futile" and "I wanted you to look something up". She replies "Oh ok". Not "sorry I was busy what is it?". I knew she was going to flake at that point, and my theory was because of the previous weekend.

So around 6 or so I text her "I'll be at your place at 8" which has been pretty standard between us. She quickly replies "I may not. I'll let you know". This is when I completely lost my cool and broke fucking frame and even knew in my head I was fucking up. I happened to be near her house so I drove up. Her car was there and the door was cracked open so i go inside, ask her sister where she is and like a dumbass start looking in all the rooms. Ended up "scaring" her sister and her friends (I'm pretty jacked) so she tells me after her sister calls her when I leave. She's telling me though text how she's out with friends and how it was so not cool what I did and I need to calm down and she will text me when she gets home. I say "that's fine", knowing that if she doesn't I'm nexting her ass. She then says "it makes me scared of you when you do stuff like that". I tell her that I was worried all week she was gonna try and hurt herself and that I'd never do anything but protect her and "that little girl" and if she thinks otherwise she is free to walk. She says I must not care because I didn't call her all week and she was going to "blow her face off" Tuesday night until one of her friends called "one of the ones I'm hanging out with now". I suspect it to be a guy and worst case it's just him and not anyone else like she's making it sound. So I tell her I'm focused on my career and I'll be happy to make time for her during the week if she needs me but since she stood me up last minute I'll be making other plans for the weekend. I know I shouldn't have told her shit. She says "that's fine". Then about an hour with no reply from me the hamster comes to life and she sends a fucking wall text:

"And p.s. I didn't stand you up. I said I wasn't sure if I'd be home by 8. You freaked out and searched my house for me, as far as going into my sister's room, which frightened her. That was totally uncalled for. You need to chill the fuck out, seriously. I have a life, besides you, and as much as I wish that I could see you everyday you elect to only see me only on the weekends. I accept that, but if the only time I can see my friends is also on the weekends, well I've been a bad enough friend lately. I don't want to lose the few I have left. So, since they asked me to hang out today, since you usually only pick me up real late, I didn't think it would be a problem. That is until you walked into my house, without knocking, and scared the shit out of my sister. Idk what to do now"

I haven't replied and haven't heard from her since last night. I actually took an HB8 out last night I've been texting with after lifting heavy at the gym. Didn't get laid but it helped my inner frame. Got another one lined up for tonight. I'm hoping I can instill some dread but I feel I lost my frame massively.

My question is: do I continue the soft next up through next week (I have board exams to study for and this is the worst time for drama but it also gives me alone time to get shit done) OR just hard next this bitch as I feel she may be the one to do it first. I've swallowed the pill, it will hurt some but she'll never know that because I'll never beg for forgiveness or chase her like I did with one last year before finding TRP and I think she knows I have no problem leaving her.

TLDR; hard next or soft next after LTR shit test flake and losing frame?