Hey everyone... The title itself is probably enough but think it's come to the point where I'm sick & tired of being beta. Long story short I found a girl online and we started "dating". She lives in Europe while I live in the US. She was drop dead gorgeous and I epically put her on a pedestal and did everything beta. I'm probably the least alpha person on this planet tbh. Anyway... in February she dumped me for some other guy and I was a wreck. Quit my good paying job and somewhat attempted suicide. Not as bad now but it still kills me whenever i thin about how she's getting banged by this new guy and I'm stuck watching porn everyday. (Going to start NoFap) im 20 and have basically wasted the last few years of my life with online girls which makes me cringe to type.

Since we've been broken up I've went to the gym almost everyday but that's basically the only positive I can take away from this. Ive read the sidebar and am on here everyday but feel like I need tough love from members here to help me stop being a bitch. Hate wasting my life on a bitch I never even met.