Back in 7th grade I was beta cucked. Zits all that shit. Friend zoned by chicks and everything. I learned my lesson and by junior year of HS I was partying, doing 3 sports and banging different girls and having a good old time. I was a skinny athletic type that got along with almost every click.

Went to college, everything was great. Met this chick, she was the first to let me blow it in her mouth. Instantly “loved” her for that. We graduate move to a big city, I get my first job. Everything is great. She tries to get into grad school and finally gets into one out of state.

My first mistake was choosing to follow her to her school and get a job there. I help support her through grad school. I always told her I wouldn’t get married until late 30’s but I propose when she graduates because it feels right. We move back to my home town, get married.

Shit stats to fall apart here. She comes from a shitty family. Mine is awesome. We are in my home town. She is hostile to my parents who are nothing but nice. I’m not awake yet and we have first kid.

Everything really starts to go to shit here. She starts to get crazy. It think she’s in postpartum depression. I search for counseling for her. She starts to treats me like shit. She refuses to let me blow it in her mouth anymore all that crap.

We get counseling and medical help for her, she gets on meds. I think things are on the up and up, we have a 2nd kid (I know… I’m a fucking idiot)

Now I find RedPill and it all make sense. I stopped focusing on my life when I moved to the state she got into School. I gave up my great career in a big city for her and since then I’ve been slowly surrendering my life to her. I stopped focusing on myself and only cared about her happiness.

I feel like fucking shit now. I love my kids so much; in fact I will say I had never experienced true love until they came into existence. It helped me love my parents more and yes, strangely my wife simply because she’s the mother of my children. Still, I get the feeling she is disgusted by me. She shys away from kisses, doesn’t ever cuddle on the couch like we used to in our 20’s. It’s a chore to get laid, there is no intimacy. Classic married life I guess. I’m contemplating divorce now.

Since discovering RedPill I’m trying to undo some of the shit I’ve done. I’ve gotten a weapon to protect my family. I’ve stopped doing mundane shit she asks me to do that I hate. I am focusing on my own needs again. My question is, is it possible to undo the damage I’ve already done to myself in her mind?

I’d prefer to stay together for the kids but have no interest in fucking a human fleshpile that doesn’t give a fuck or even try. She refuses to open the relationship so I’m just slowly pulling back and considering my options. She’s mean, angry and a bitch to the kids. Just treats them like shit. Yet she always makes herself the victim. She’s selfish as fuck. I’m just sick of it.

So, is there hope to use Red Pill to recover or is it all too far gone?

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