Ok this is happening since with my school days..(21 now) I have been sabotaging my friends from past many years. I always wanted to have cool friends and I am such a dude with similar interests ( bands, guitars, chris nolan... You got the idea. ) At first they would be super cool to me and likewise I would. But afterwards the friendship starts to decrease. For this I end up with people who I don't want to be friends with. (Like Below average people). Just to be sure I not a lonely jerk. I'm in this a fear that they'll judge n make fun of me when I'll be talking to them How can I recover from this? ... help.