I am having a really hard time dealing with being ugly. I don't see how I can enjoy life to the fullest. I know that looks are important although you can compensate with power and money.

My inner monologue:- If I'm ugly, I won't get pretty girls, people won't notice me. If I get rich and powerful, yes, I might get that a bit, but it won't be as good if I was handsome. So, whats the point of working hard when you can't achieve your dream of being handsome, rich and powerful. I want to live life to the fullest and if I'm ugly, I can't, so I'll give up.

I know above is so wrong and cringey, but I can't help it. I can't get out of this mindset.

All I want is a goal, a dream so that I can wake up everyday to work towards it. But every time I dream, I dream of being a hot, sexy dude rocking a suit and after that I immediately go back to the way I am, sulking and doing nothing.

Please help me.