History: I swallowed the red pill about six months ago. I started to see the results of it, fucking more attractive woman, having real options, a taste of it. Soon afterward I learned that I did not have any real frame. A quick hit of depression soon went underway. I am now on the other side, I have for lack of a better term gotten my shit together. But it seems like it would be 'easier' to go back to a blue pill mindset, I want to ignore all that I have learned. To...forget it(red pill truths) and as the title suggests I am at a crossroads. What do I do? I am young/impressionable and confused. help