Long time, first time.

I started dating this girl Nicole 4 months ago. Classic alpha widow (ex coked out party girl, roster of chads, vague job titles).

The relationship was build on sex and things were going great. I maintained a lover frame in the relationship and we split costs for times we went out.

I told her I was still on a path to self improvement and that meant I still wanted to get better with women. She agreed to and open relation (mostly one sided, she would only have sex with me and I would be free to date).

So far so good right? Well things have been getting really hard emotionally for me - I have to constantly reassure her and tell her I love her and that shes my main girl. I see it causes her a lot of pain when I go out with other girls.

I fumbled this morning when I told her I was taking a girl to a renn faire outside of town. I had mentioned it to her before that we should go together - when I told her I was bringing someone else there she got really upset... and I felt like an asshole.

What I'm asking is should I continue trying this open relationship thing we have going, I mean I would get crazy jealous and upset if she started exercising all her options (shes hot and has LOADS of dudes after her) - or do I just cut my losses and break up with her.

Id also love to hear your thoughts on maintaining a strong frame with this type of relationship dynamic - my game isn't so advance that I can fuck girls consistently.... am I setting myself up for failure?