When it comes to authority figures, I am either staunchly against them and hat their control or am incredibly scared of them. Somehow this has been an issue for a long time, like I'm super scared that if I disagree or they get mad at me, I'll have to suffer in some way or be punished for having a differing opinion.
I'm 25, and there seems to be some all pervading belief in my mind that i am about to be abandoned again by authority. My parents are an exception but they live far away and I don't havve the money to visit them rn.
if any of you overcame abandonment, especially with authority figures who can't be cut away (eg. boss/close family members), please help me out.