Was on the way to eat out to dinner with long term ltr. She hasn’t done anything unforgivable in 5 years. We were listening to music on her iphone. The music skipped a second.

Spidey sense- I ask “did someone call you?” She said no. Acted funny. I could tell she was lying. I held frame and asked her to see her phone. She declined. That told me everything I needed to know.

On the way home (we livED together) she said that “it was someone from Facebook” and that people were calling to wish her happy b day. I didn’t engage in too much conversation.

At first I felt free to pursue other women, guilt free, (im court married), and I felt great. She left her house and is still gone. I feel very sad now. I understand trp. I’ve read sidebar. I still feel sad now. Although, awalt, I felt I was immune. I feel humiliated and sad that she’s gone and most likely getting fucked by someone else already.