Okay, so here is the situation. I’ve been massively depressed for a while now, I attempted suicide even. Recently I’ve started seeing a girl. She makes me happy and forget about my sorrow, so that’s good. I’m still in therapy, not going to rely on her as a solution. The issue is I know she’s not a good idea for me. She’s polyamorous and has a girlfriend too. I’m fine with her girlfriend, but the idea of her potentially dating another dude freaks me out. I couldn’t do it. I’ve told her that and she doesn’t like the idea of being restricted and I don’t want to restrict her. So, basically I accept that she may one day fall in love with another dude and it’ll fuck me up. I don’t know if I could stay with her and who knows how much it’ll fuck me up if that happens. I love her, we’ve been together for a while now and things have gotten really real.

We are long distance and that’s been really sucky. I recently left my job for a better opportunity and I found a few options in her area. So now I’m moving across the country to where she lives with a new job. As I’ve set these plans in motions I’ve noticed how shit a lot of my friends where and I’m glad I’m leaving. That being said, I’m moving across the US to be with someone who I know will break my heart.

So internet, how fucked am I?