With recent success in my pursuits I have been experiencing an increase in my SMV. It’s my senior year of high school and I am a two sport varsity athlete (baseball and basketball) and have gained 10lbs of muscle in the last 3ish months from serious lifting. Obviously, the attention from girls has risen and it’s great. However, the whole sexual process is making me depressed.

I have gotten random nudes from chicks, plenty of sloppy drunk texts, and girls at parties actually grabbing me and pulling me away from my friends. Experiencing this RP side of girls first hand makes me feel disgusted and disappointed to some degree. Part of me won’t let my BP fantasies of love and romance die even though I know that these girls will never love me in the way that I want.

Don’t get me wrong, I have begun spinning plates and hooking up with chicks but the whole process is giving me a growing apathy towards girls. So I wanted to know if anyone else went through this and how they got over it before I go crazy MGTOW incel.