The more i go out the more incredible results i didn't expect to happen happen.

There were a ton of so so non-results, as in women keep walking, don't pay attention to what I say, flake, etc or I couldn't approach as much as I wanted due to approach anxiety or cock blocker friends.

When I first getting into game, I thought game is a mess.

I can see many patterns and causes and effects now. So it wasn't really random chaos.

But game is still like a gamble to me. You can't control majority of the outcomes due to her logistic, new shit test you never faced, new situational challenge, her unique problems (Bipolar, or trauma or period or fat bitchy cocky blocker friend or racism toward you)

But sometimes incredible results happen in between a lot of so so, and bad experiences, it is a big mind fuck.

The brain wasn't prepared to suddenly bring a hot girl home. When it was presented with so many chaotic, out of control reactions or non-reactions from women, the brain expected this to keep going. It was not prepared to have a woman you could only dream of suddenly threw herself at you.

Like recently I talked to a timid 21 years old near a park cold approach and took her first kiss. During a lockdown!! I missed a front tooth! I Look early 30s but 39yo. I was like surprised by this good result.

I didn't have to do much for those "miracle" sets. Her responsiveness opened up my brain. Suddenly the right things to say or do become apparent because her feminie and positive energy empowered me, or unstifled me, or awaken the inner child (that 13 yo me who intuitively and naturally knew how to flirt and tease women before I got re-programmed by society/systems/schools/parents/church)

It is so fragile though. Like one quick mistake and the whole thing crumbled.

One simple factor (ovulation? Want to try my race? Experimental phrase? Happened to see my performance? But many women seen me killed it on stage and never wanted to do anything with me though) might cause her to be suddenly deciding to fuck me, but one simple mistake and I lose her.

Love is a fragile thing. But it comes so sudden. Sometimes when I get through a lot of no's, and then that hot beautiful girl goes on a sudden instant date with me I be like WOW what is this?'

Just when I became insecure with my race, age, background, height, look etc due to many "negative" (not really negatives, but a lot of factors and distractions and nothing happen at the end) interactions with women, suddenly this prettiest girl of them all decided to give me a real chance to bring her home.

I call it the X factor. When you go out to meet a lot of women, your X factor accumulates and when it reaches a certain level, a girl you thought was impossible suddenly pop up, without you having to say more than "hi" she literally jump on your dick. (It happened before, more than once and I didnt even go out much)

Time you spent infield isn't wasted. Game is indeed game. Remember when you were little when you played group games with other kids in the street and after a while the euphoria started to get going and your mom called you for dinner? You wanted to keep playing.

X factor is like that. As long as you meet enough attractive women, doesn't matter how short the interactions are, and whether they rejected you or called you creep, that X factor rises.

Then soon a hot hot hot girl, hotter than them all, jumped on your dick, follow you home.

Anybody wants to share similar experience? like what is this?