This is my time to time throwaway account.

Hello everyone:) I'm a long time subscriber to /r/redpill from my personal account. Little back round on me. I'm M28 years old currently in a LTR for around 4 years with my second half F38 years old. (I know pretty big difference by society standards.)

I met my LTR at work, she was new we hit it off chemistry was off the charts, and basically first few months we were screwing all around the clock any day of the week. Forward few more months, she discovered my dark side witch was: late night partying, lots of female drinking buddies and fondness for collecting quality bourbon and scotch. For the next year or so she decided to do what any girl with a alpha boyfriend would do. Fix me! and make me a fucking beta, not really provider (she's very independent and makes, or rather saves more than I do.) It was more like the guy I want to show to my parents situation. Everything went downhill from there. I stopped going out, lost contact with my buddies and even ended good friendships just for her, to make her happy. Sex became a chore that I had to ask for on a weekly basis. She even forced me to workout less after a knee injury, while she maintained her super fit and sexy physique. Also she always complained that because I'm so much younger I will eventually leave her for a better hotter girl, which is total crap cause I'm not that type of guy- Alpha doesn't cheat on his LTR.

So few months ago I decided that I've had enough of this beta bullshit and went back to working out 5 times a week, playing tennis with my female friend, and going out more and reconnecting with some of my friends. I also started NoFap and meditation. Few weeks ago we were at a restaurant celebrating my b-day, and I've might of went little too heavy on a scotch and was flirting with a bartender right in front of my girl. I think the last straw was when I asked for check and to my surprise, the hot 20 something bartender left her phone number on the receipt!!! (this happened only a handful of times back when I was in college) I didn't even noticed at first but my LTR did!!! Well the ride home wasn't fun to say the least.(lots of crying and screaming) However after we showered and went to bed, she went all out beast mode on me! and I'm saying multiple times and positions just like in the start of our relationship. Not to even mention morning sex when we woke up and screwing after work on a kitchen table the same day!!!. Now this has been going on for around a week and I couldn't be happier, I finally got my horny GF back. What worries me is that I have this feeling that it will require some sort of trade off from my side. I'm afraid that she's just trying to fuck me back to my good graces and switch me back to being her Beta McBates.

I'm totally lost right now, should I continue the dread game even if it feels kind of bad for me since I achieved my objective and I feel it's not fair to treat her this way? I love her to death but I don't know what to do?