No matter what, i am an eccentric at heart. I am high energy and suppressing that thru being an alpha just makes me fucking unhappy. Although I have landed girls' numbers. I never finish. I fucking hate not having girls st my disposal at a moment's notice. All my friends and most guys have a butch that they can just text and they will instantly meet up, but this isn't working for me. I have too high standards so I don't date girls that look like ur typical Janes. I fucking hate how Cucked I feel. I am 6'4, 20, the only kid in my grade with an Apartment (that lives Solo) and I haven't FUCKED A SINGLE GIRL HERE. WHAT's WRONG WITH ME? I workout I am ducking attractive in the face, I have my shut together but none of these botches will make time for a nigga. They usually don't respond or have "school work to do" Fuck I am contemplating suicide because I can't seal the deal. And yes I am because this is pussy and puasy is the meaning of life, u can sit here and give me some typical red pill self-help "keep ur self occupied" bullshit, but in the end it's about pussy. AND I AM TIRED OF JACKING OFF I AM SO SICK OF TOUCHING MYSELF I AM 20 AND I HAVE NEVER BEEN INSIDE OF A FUCKING WOMAN. I AM GOING TO BEAT A WALL RIGHT NOW NECAUSE I AM SO PISSED THAT NOTHING I DO IS WORKING. Please help me. My face is attractive so it's not that I'm ugly. It has to be something with my personality which fucking kills me because it's ME, and I love me. I hate that I would need to "be" someone else just to get pussy. Why can't I just fuck a girl that's attractive?