Was edging last night. Wasted two hours playing with myself. Still struggling with masterbation, but convinced myself that not finishing made it okay.

Came close a few times, but was able to walk away.

This morning, LTR was resistant. Playful tease, but Cock blocking at last minute. I Was unfazed. It felt very much like the self denial from last night. No anger, or resentment.

I shrugged and did some stuff i needed to do in the yard.

In general, I've improved considerably, but rejection/resistance bugs me. I am getting better at hiding the butthurt from her, but this time i didn't even feel butthurt.

I'll focus on everything else. But this last was note worthy for me.