Hi lads,

One area of TRP i struggle with is the control of my emotions. On the outset I display strong alpha characteristics. Fortunate with looks, good job, tall, lift/good shape. Despite this I ended up having beta insecurities in relationships until TRP showed me the light.

I fixed this shit, learned some game and got rid of gf. Lessons learned, and brought forward to single life. There is a whole other side of my personality though, that I still don't know how to fix. I'm quite defensive, still somewhat insecure, think negatively about situations, am jealous and seek social validation.

It pains me to admit this, and I hate the fact that this is part of who I am but I constantly try and change this and become aware of it. I had success with some aspects of this change, when I went to a Councillor in my university at the end of my final year, he pretty much identified parents not being home when I was younger was at root cause of my issues. He said all my issues stemmed from three main categories

  1. Want for acceptance /to fit in
  2. Fear of rejection/someone close to me hurting me
  3. Need for Validation/attention.

Amazing how much this shit when your young can affect you. If this isn't right for TRP i'll move it on to some pysch section, but just wanted some input from some TRP brothers