A few months back I made a post about having trouble dealing with my father and asking for advice on what to do.

Long story short I decided to just ignore him while we live together since I can’t move out for now because i don’t have the money to support myself and since the pandemic started I’ve struggle to keep making the same amount of money I was making back then.

Now we basically ignore each other and there hasn’t been any more fights, but after that one fight I think he really got me back to point 0 in my improvement journey. I was making real progress, started working out two years ago, and went from 143 to 155 with visible abs (I’m 5,7 btw) My sense of worth was really starting to take off I started to really like the way I looked and acting more confident, and I think that started to affect my family, specially my father. I started to notice that he really didn’t like me, witch was not a big deal if he would have kept is mouth shut.

Basically after that fight I started to overthink everything I do, and asking myself if I really I’m acting like a cocky mf or is just my father insecurities that make him see me that way, and it has been affecting me more than I was expecting, it’s been affecting my behavior and my motivation. I’ve stop going to the gym and I’ve catch myself trying to avoid any kind of attention or standing out from everyone as in trying to not make my family feel uncomfortable. So I don’t know what to do now, I feel like I’m just going in circles, I feel lost, as if the path that I had previously chose for me was not really the right one.

I’m just asking for a little guidance, should I make the jump move out and see where life takes me? Because I don’t see myself changing if I keep on been around my dad.