I believe morality is relative.. Thus most of the teaching of the bible are rendered against me.. I dont believe them to be honest i think its a wya to control people.. However i do believe in miracles where i live people have been cured miraculously (scientifically the doctors say so themselves when dealing with dying patients who pray alot)... It happens.. Not everytime.. But it does happen.. So im lost.. I want to believe in a god and maybe life again after i die.. Im too affraid at this point.. What if there was nothing.. I rarely invest in anything at this point.. I look hot and do some home stuff but its too slow progress.. And im always affraid of dying at any point.. I never give too much fucks about anything