For a while my mind was clogged up with shit. Recently (as of yesterday) I decided to properly meditate and be mindful.

Well now I can catch my thoughts and be mindful for short periods, but whenever I do I feel....disconnected from reality, rather than engaged with it.

I observe and 'feel' the environment, but apart from that I just feel so disconnected from reality, as if I am not a part of it.

When I went bowling today I couldn't have fun in the moment, I felt like I was existing but not living, if that makes sense.