Hello Guys,

I need some rational Input and Advice, and there is no better place to get both than here. Posting with a throwaway for anonymity reasons.

Some Backstory:

I am 31, self-employed Civil Engineer, live in Germany. I work in waste water management, mostly I am controlling water quality, it involves a lot of traveling and going to bad smelling places. But it pays exceptionally well. So, I married back when I was 20, because I got the girl pregnant. Surprisingly the marriage didn't last, She left me for another Dude. We got Divorced, but I didn't get Ass-Raped in the Court: No Alimony, I have my Daughter 50% of the Time, No Child-Support payments to the mother either.

My Kid changed my life though, I went back to college and got my Bachelor (and later, my Master) in Civil Engineering, and eventually started working in a big Engineering Firm, and after getting some additional certificates, I went the self-employment route. Money is really good, I can manage my Time almost completely how I want. Lift weights, do some BJJ and MMA, love to cook myself (big advocate of lchf with real food, mostly fresh meat and fresh vegs); so am in good shape, very important to me.

Dating Wise I completely lost interest in any LTR's after my Divorce, began to read a lot about TRP and MRA Stuff, and became a bit jaded and cynical about Relationships and "Love". Of course did the occasional Hook-Up, but never dated the same Girl more than four to five times. Having a small kid is a nice way to start conversations with Girls, so getting new Material wasn't a problem.

Ok, enough of the Backstory (sorry for boring you to tears, but IMHO you need the full picture).

Main Piece

So, I started dating seriously again, lets call her Anna. I met her some months ago, related to my work. She is involved in the Lab I hand over my various water samples I have to collect. Since there are many different Tests and ways to interpret the data, I call and email the lab a lot. It started with some business dinners, and after some weeks I wanted to just bang her, and just asked her out. She almost jumped me, must have felt the same way as it seems. Hooked up some more times, and went out to some Dinners and eventually did more couple stuff than just eating and fucking. It went on longer than I planned, and it suddenly hit me like a bucket filled with cold water, I like her, she is smart, looks really good (easily 9/10 - 27 yo, Firm Breasts, long brunette hair, slender figure, but got curves and an ass, lean and fit body, well groomed), knows a lot interesting Biology and Chemistry(Majored in Bio-Chemistry), which we love to talk about for hours and is just fun to be around - not like the self-absorbed, Smartphone addicted bimbos that I have dated in the past. The Sex is fantastic, she almost wants it more than I do, quite crazy. She is very enthusiastic in the sheets, there are few things she won't do. And afterwards, nothing better than tangling up with your sweaty gal, and falling asleep after some quality time.

This went on for some weeks, the weeks turned into months, and she now sleeps more at my place than hers. She cooks, cleans and sometimes buys food. My daughter loves her, they get along very well - the little one already said she would like her as a second mum.

So, sounds like everything is good, what are you bitching about dude? I just feel strange, and not like my usual self the last months. I think about her, miss her when she is not around. Sharing the bed almost every night felt strange at first, now it just feels right. Is this just because I really didn't date seriously for a long time, basically just some rebound? I almost feel like a teenager, falling in love for the first time - not like a 31 businessman who should know better, especially after TRP and my Divorce.

Also, there is one thing I neglected to mention about her: She is paraplegic. She had a Bike accident causing a spinal cord injury - which made her wheelchair bound. Well, she can walk with some weird looking braces and clutches, most of the time she prefers the wheel chair, for convenience's sake. Of course I knew this before I dated her - I have seen her in the Lab plenty of times. I thought that any sex would be pretty boring, since she would not be able to feel anything from it. Well, that is actually wrong, she said she feels it just like before the accident, mainly it is just the legs that are not working. The Vag is doing fine, and she also can get pregnant without any problems. I don't really that she has this disability, I actually enjoy being able to help her around my house, like carrying her up my stairs, getting stuff out of high cabinets. And carrying a hot chick around at the beach certainly got some looks (it is a drag to push a wheelchair through sand - carrying her is easier. More workout for me!). She will turn 27 this September, she certainly is hearing her clock ticking. She hinted at wanting to have her own kid, and how much she enjoys spending time with my daughter. Don't know if I am quite ready for that.

Well Gentlemen, I would welcome your Input and Advice. Am I jumping the Gun with this one? Is it just an act and my hormones and feelings are clouding my mind? I feel really overwhelmed.