(English isn’t my first langue)

I’m 17, and a year in the redpill. I used the knowledge here to game a girl and got in an ltr with her we had an relationship for more then a year. She yesterday broke up with me because she felt like she carried the relationship, that she took all the initiative what is everything but true. So my first reaction (she took me by suprise with this, everything was going fine) was to tell her I could adjust and be more initiative taking. But she said it wasn’t going to last because u can’t fake something that u aren’t (and its true I’m not a person with lots of ideas and plans for dates etc) she also said with that, that she didn’t want to force me into doing things, but to me that sounded like an excuse. Because if she really liked me she would be glad I wanted to try again and be more initiative taking, right? Now is the thing I don’t know if I miss her or if I miss someone that loves me. And because of that I don’t know how to move on. Any advice or thoughts about this situation?