Hi guys,

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Ill make this quick. LTR for 2 1/2 years with a solid woman, the most loyal woman i've ever met. I cheated on her once in 2017 and we got over it. Now in the beginning of 2019 i went to another country for medical school. Long distance was fine but i caved and hooked up with another girl. I told my girl immediately. for a month we bickered over the phone. she still loved me but we technically werent together anymore- talks about getting back together when i come home from school in a few months time. she was a mess. she just lost her dad a year ago and relied heavily on me- so this news to her really devasted her. she told me it was harder than losing her dad.. anyways, after a month of bickering i told her to "get over me" and that im going no contact- she agreed. 2 days after that she called me wanting to get back together. I agreed. a week after that she told me she fucked someone in the few days we were going no contact. its been a few weeks since then. I still cant quite forgive her. Sexually I dont think of her the same. I dont know how long it will take for that image to get better. I go home to her in a months time. My question to you is,

What should I go about this/forgive her.

I understand what sub im on right now. Yall are dying to tear me a new one. She is the loyal one in this case and I dont know how to go about loving her and growing from this in a positive direction.