Hey asktrp, been maybe a year since i swallowed the pill and i've gotten from a point where i didnt have goals or a job and i barely talked to women, to a point where i'm just about to start a great new job at a major car manufacturing company, i dont put women on a pedestal and i like myself a lot more.

Things is, i've gotten involved with this girl. we've been going steady for a while now and things are great from an outside view, and i've started meeting her friends and family and shit. But there's this itch in my back head. when you look at your girlfriend or wife or whatever you prefer to call her, youre supposed to feel something like: fuck yeah this girl is awesome she can do this, that etc. When you see a message from your girl youre supposed to atleast feel excited. Im not saying you should exhibit one-itis symptoms but i think you know what i mean. I dont feel any excitement. When i look at her sometimes when im sober, i feel like: Damn what the fuck did i get myself into. Everything seems awesome on paper. And all her friends keep saying good catch, you guys look so cute together. It sounds just like when someone is trying to sell you something they are tired of or know is fucking broken. And i feel kind of guilty for going so headstrong into this relationship and now i almost want out.

Does anyone have any insight on this, why do i feel like this? What to do if you were me etc.

If it helps your reasoning i'm 19 she is 18.

Thanks in advance.