I've always had RP tendencies and just never could really believe all the bullshit society taught us growing up. I started my redpill journey on my own, then found the sub and was only encouraged that the path I was following was the right one.

But I seem to have a hit a wall....

I'm referencing this post.

I don't know how to get to stage 5. I'm hoping at least a few in here could provide some insight on taking this last step in my current journey. Before I set out on what I expect to be a much longer, more varied, and difficult journey. haha.

What I've been doing: Ignoring the negative, people who try to run me down and use me. I've cut a ton of people out of my life and replaced them with a few positive influences. There are still blue pill people in my life, because they've been around a long time and most people are blue pill people. But I keep them on the outside, socially speaking. I don't call/text them, I put no effort into seeing them anymore. If they want to see me, and I have no other plans that night, I'll go hang out with the group occasionally. A couple of them are fun to be around, so I give limited time to the others and focus on them.

I've been approaching girls and getting numbers like candy. I know numbers are meaningless but it still feels good to do it so easily. However I've been doing this for quite a while now and it doesn't seem to be working.

I really don't have any interest in "plates" or one night stands. I'm 26, I did plenty of that in my teens and early 20's. It bores me now. Also of note here is that I started working full time (overtime actually, 100+ hours/week) to support my family at 15, so if you're thinking "well when I was 26" don't, stop, right now. I'm at least 10 years ahead of you, your 36 is my 26. Don't pigeon hole me into some box I don't fit in.

Then there's the fact that all these girls I meet aren't very interesting. They can't carry the conversation, I have to. They have no life prospects, no career, no skills, but I've been focused almost exclusively on bettering myself my entire life. None of them make me excited to be around them. I think about going out or even just calling/texting and I just don't want to. Why would I? It's all work for me and no pleasure.

I've been here before, and I generally just take a break, give it some time, recharge basically, then get back out there and start trying again. But at this point I've met and discarded well over 100 girls (I could be approaching 1000 at this point honestly, idk). Wide range of interest from them all, varying from "only when convenient" to downright stalker-ish behavior.

This is a cycle, starts out with me being very enthusiastic and willing to put a lot of effort forth and dwindles until I'm barely willing to even be around to where I'm at now, I no longer want to be around people. With very few exceptions made for close friends. (Shitty family life, so none of them are in the picture, except my brother, who's barely in the picture.)

I hope I'm expressing this well, and I know I get overly verbose but I want to paint a complete picture here. I have no idea how to move past this, I've tried many times and failed many times. I'm tired. I'm back at the stage of thinking it might just be best to work 10 years, save up, buy a cabin in the woods and just say "fuck everyone", live out my life in solitude and just stop trying.

TL:DR Not to seem cocky, but there just doesn't seem to be anyone worth bothering with out there. My standards aren't too high, they're exactly appropriate for what I offer.