Had an FWB for over a year (from work, yea I shit where I ate) and it was great. She was sub, she helped me develop my dom side, she cooked for me occasionally, fucked when I wanted, we hung out alot outside of work, she kept in shape and started weightlifting so she looked better than ever. I got feelings for her but didn't act o it because I didn't want to rock the boat (kept it secret from work and I didn't know where i'd move to next year). She eventually moved on and didn't want to fuck anymore. Now I'm fucking longing for her. I've fucked another chick since but I'm still thinking how everything (hanging fucking) was so easy with her. I felt like I fucked up on a long term partnership but not being more serious about it.

Godddammit. I'm sick of feeling this way. I'm gonna go lift. Any advice?

Also, I'm having trouble gaining weight. Any advice on eating more easily?