So I feel like I'm at an interesting crossroads.

I started my journey two years ago and had an amazing year in consequence. Then I had a down year. The past month I've really changed my mindset. I envision what I want and am working towards it.

However, I feel like there are two people inside me right now. The former beta I was that wants to pull me down and settle in a state of rest and the alpha that wants to do what he wants to do and climb the ladder.

Every thing I do is a constant argument of "do I want to do this? What if I fail, what if I'm not even following the right path?"

I'm 20 and a junior in college right now.

Has anybody else felt like this before? Constantly torn between the two divisions? And if so, how did you get through it?