I've read scooper books: No more mr nice guy Models Book of pook

But I'm having ahard time retaining the info (or applying it)

When talking ppl including girls I see a bit of my bp slip out and in my mind I'm trying so hard to think "ok what was that one rule" or "ok what did the book say regarding this situation" and I'm not quick on my feet

The application aspect of the books: fitness I have down pat

But I'm just a social autist. Like I will literally avoid ppl because I hate the awkward silence in between convos. My biggest problem is I literally don't know what to talk to ppl about

I thought that when I got abs I would be able to talk fine because before when I was fat I felt embarrassed or even inadequate to talk because I felt less of human because I was fat, but now that I'm lean, I'm still awkward