I have other problem which are related to my mentality, I can lift for 4 weeks straight but then I stop completly, I can see alot of friends for some time and then go back to my isolated unix world. My mind focus alot on one thing like not smoking cigarrette and it become extremely easy to do X but when I lose focus it just go to trash and I revert back. I haven't drank for 2months and it was impressively easy to do so but I had that one craving that got me go to the bar. Being {tobacco,alchool,drug}-free plus having a good schedule and lifting require tireless vigilence; a constant military like discipline. So right now I'm just waiting for the next time I'll have that self-actualisation drive to be clean and fit again.

I'm slave to my body's desire. Feeling like a child throwing a fit for candies.