Everytime I get horny or lonely I start hitting up the numbers of all the women I have been in contact with. Usually most go nowhere and I dump the numbers.

The problem is I am too dependent on female contact, touch etc. I do nofap, and when it goes weeks without sex (at best only makeouts at parties) I get weak.

Like today, I finally cleaned my apartment but really because I was gonna meet up with a girl who flaked. I responded to her flake by calling her "Lame".

I resent the fact that some much of my motivation, happiness is connected to getting pussy or even the possibility, which I go without on a daily basis.

Later in the evening, I called another female who had earlier given me play. She suggested a different day, several days later. I pushed her on meeting up now a bit, and she claimed she was too lazy. When I hung up, I thought about demeaning this excuse was and I canceled it.

The endless cycle, is the high of pussy or potential pussy/female company, and the low is the usual disappointment that it doesnt pan out.

I do get sex, occasionally(thanks to game). Simultaenously, my past as an incel for several years haunt me as the inescapable hole of loneliness.

How did you guys stop caring ? Or stop getting excited-disappointed all the time ?