So oneitis may be one of the most talked about topics and it seems like mine should be solved by now having taken the pill 2 years ago. It's not. It's still there. To better explain this it may take you suffering through some unbearable beta moments on my part so buckle up and knuckle down cause this shits about to get cringy.

So pre-redpill, beta chuck me had really strong feelings for some girl I go to high school with. Not too good looking, not too funny but one of the most charming people I've met. I fucked it up, waited too long and ended up one of the worst orbiters alive. Shit. After the third time she shot me down, hard this time, I found the red pill. I got smart. I ghosted her for about a year. Good right? Well it didn't last. I ended up with severe depression from family issues and turned to her for help; she dealt with abuse and depression herself. It went great. I got better. Then low and behold a fucking tsunami of bets feelings flooded my veins and I was back to being that stupid fuck all orbiter again. I ghosted her again after that but now I'm realising the first time I did it it didn't work so it probably won't now.

I've improved myself. I've studied TRP. I've gotten big from lifting. Nothing worked. I'm still the same stary eyed little beta with a heart of "gold" and his head so far up his own ass he can see his own appendix.

I need some advice. I don't want to be stuck in a cycle of exposure, obsession and abandonment anymore.