My whole life I just wanted to provide for a women and form a family. I realized quite early in my life that some women try to manipulate men and just want to use them. I thought back then that those women were just shitty. But in the last weeks/months I started to realize that they are not shitty women, just shitty at hiding it properly.

I start to understand that if I continue to live like I did I'll end up with a 30 year old who hit the wall and will cheat on me while I work hard to get the money.

My question is now how did you do the change in your life (if you had one)? I start feeling guilty even at the thought of using women for sex or not being honest with them.

Also some informations about me that will perhaps influence the advice you will give me:

19 years old, technically a virgin, grew up in a single mother household, am student but will quit it to start another one in another town (so basically a fresh start)